Sew Perfect for Every Body!

I have come to realise that my panic attacks are a result of the realization that I will never feel like the place i currently live in as my home. I DO NOT LIKE THIS PLACE AND MY HEART CRYS OUT IN PAIN!! My sewing space is super small and very dark i cannot see well enough to complete started projects. Maybe i will feel better if i can get some light in the room. I almost left work today because my pain was intense today. Pain in my knees,back,head,chest. I have to figure out how to survive in this place. I am not sure if i can but will attempt to fight thru. My next post will be after i have been able to deal with the drama i have created in my mind. Pray for me!

11/19 In about 8 months I will be 50 years old. I never really paid too much attention to my age. As long as I am able to do what I enjoy age is really not a factor. However lately I have had a lot of doctor appointments. This increase in appointments started with the feeling of something was in my throat all the time. I cough to clear my throat, I took allergy medicine thinking of sinus drainage causing the problem but after 3 weeks decided to go to see the doctor. This appointment lead to a series of appointments for testing and then appointments to get results of testing only to make new appointments for additional testing.. Results of all this testing a node on my thyroid was found and new treatment for my GERD. Prilosec every morning and zantac 1 hour after last meal of the day. After about 8 days the feeling in my throat was gone. I continue that routine everyday. When they did a CT scan on my throat to see if something was there, because I kept insisting that there was ...

10/26/2011 As you read this imagine the theme song from M.A.S.H tv series. The song is suicide is painless.. My dear sweet hubby does not understand why he now has to use 20 cc of insulin everyday in addition to 4 tables of 500 mg metiformin 1 tablet of amaryl (not sure of dosage). When the doctor told him is sugar levels were too high and he need to give himself insulin shots every day he seriously could not see why. I imagine the conversation went something like this: Well Mr.hubby the meter is showing 312 is your current sugar level the blood-work is showing ac1 at 14. When was the last time you took your medicine? Hey Doc I just ate some peaches before I came here that why the meter is showing a high number. That may be the case however that is an extremely high number and the ac1 is way way to high and eating peaches just before today appointment would have slight effect on that. So when did you last take your medicine....last month. Well I eat a lot of peaches. I had to h...

What is the purpose of having an appointment only to be told that you do not have one when you arrive at the appointed time? What is the purpose of receiving a confirmation of that appointment only to be told you do not have one when you arrive at the confirmed day and time? Why does the front desk person then want to make what was their mistake my mistake? What is the point have attempting to continue a conversation with someone who was employed only because she is the Doctors daughter? Why ask why? I need a beer.

What was the cause? That is the 10,000 dollar question. My FIL had 3 pints of blood removed from his stomach and they could not find a bleeder. Once he is released from the hospital he will be getting the capsule endoscopy which is basically a pill shaped camera that will send the photos to the doctor in hopes of finding the course of his bleeding. While in the hospital they did to endoscopy but found nothing. Well the first endoscopy showed blood with lots of clots still in his belly. They thought one big clot was blocking the source of his bleeding but since it had clotted they did not want to move it for fear of starting the bleeding again. The next day they did a second endoscopy and there was no blood in his stomach and nothing that looked like the source of the bleeding. The next plan is to do the pill shaped camera. The doctor explains that even after doing this procedure they may not find the source of his bleeding. His breathing is labored because his body is retain...